I have known you for years, from back in high school and it would have never crossed my mind that we'd be here (you are my go to person).
I sat one day with a mess I had created and it was becoming heavier by the day. I remember telling you about it not knowing if I could trust you. And you have been there to help me carry it since!
It's true what they say, it is not about who has been there the longest but who came and never left your side.
You always say I'm the female version of the guy you'd like to date 😂 but I'm sure that there are parts of me you'd love to change, before I become your perfect guy.
I mean I would not want you to die of stress.
I don't have much to say to you but thank you, for everything!
Wednesday, 13 June 2018
Setting Us Both Free!
It has been over seven years now since you forced yourself on me because you were "entitled to the sex" as you were my boyfriend.
On my birthday, of all days, you decided to take something from me that took me close to seven years to get back. I realized that because of you I just had sex because I felt I owed it to the other person.
I never spoke out because I "loved" you and wanted no trouble. And I still 'wanted' you in my life. The Monday after that you bragged about it, I cried myself to sleep. Like I did on most of the days that followed.
Not only did you take my innocence but you took my ability to love truly, trust and have hope. I have not been able to entirely trust a male person since.
I'd hate everyone of them for something they had never done. I feel like you have ruined so much of my life.
I had hoped that you would have a daughter someday, one who would talk to you about sex and the mere thought of someone like you being around her would terrify you, but that nothing would happen to her, as no one deserved this.
I don't speak ill of the dead, so I put on an act for the longest and hoped everyone remembered only the good in you. Even cried for you for months. I don't know why but I did.
It took me years to take my life, take my sex, and make it mine again. Nothing feels as empowering as this. Doing things for yourself.
Everyday I have grown a little bit stronger, and although everything plays in my mind every time it pleases, I have forgiven you for everything and finally set you free.
Rest!
On my birthday, of all days, you decided to take something from me that took me close to seven years to get back. I realized that because of you I just had sex because I felt I owed it to the other person.
I never spoke out because I "loved" you and wanted no trouble. And I still 'wanted' you in my life. The Monday after that you bragged about it, I cried myself to sleep. Like I did on most of the days that followed.
Not only did you take my innocence but you took my ability to love truly, trust and have hope. I have not been able to entirely trust a male person since.
I'd hate everyone of them for something they had never done. I feel like you have ruined so much of my life.
I had hoped that you would have a daughter someday, one who would talk to you about sex and the mere thought of someone like you being around her would terrify you, but that nothing would happen to her, as no one deserved this.
I don't speak ill of the dead, so I put on an act for the longest and hoped everyone remembered only the good in you. Even cried for you for months. I don't know why but I did.
It took me years to take my life, take my sex, and make it mine again. Nothing feels as empowering as this. Doing things for yourself.
Everyday I have grown a little bit stronger, and although everything plays in my mind every time it pleases, I have forgiven you for everything and finally set you free.
Rest!
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